Rants from a Cynical Raven











Hey there everyone!! So, new month, new entry, new stuff!!!!!

I am finally getting off of my ass and re-applying to college for the Fall Semester!! I’ve registered to be a full time student and I’m going to be working as well!! Of course even this simple task wasn’t had with out difficulties. So the college I’m going to set my registration date for August 6th……classes start the 23rd….so you can see how I was feeling like I was under a time crunch and freaking out a little. So I’m at work on the 6th waiting for my time to come up and trying to help customers at the same time. Luckily my co-worker, we’ll call him “Fry”, was there to take most of the customers while I registered. Everything’s ok, right? NOPE!! NEVER IS!! XD!! So I register and suddenly the page tells me that I can’t register cause I don’t have the proper “HS form” ……………………………………..FFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!……..What the hell is an “HS form”??!?!?! So I call Admissions & Records to find out…………………..they’re closed on Fridays…..won’t be open till Monday……FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!! So all weekend I’m spazing out, I NEED these classes to keep my insurance!! So this morning I called them up and asked them what the hell an HS form is, she says that it’s a form I need to fill out for graduating High School. I asked her why I needed to fill that out again, she says “Well did you just graduate?” I said “No, I graduated 7 years ago…and filled out the HS Form 7 years ago…” she says “…………………………………………………….oh” =D So even though they fucked up and their computers screwed me over they’re not doing anything about it. I’m now registered for 1 class, and wait-listed for 3 more……joy…

In other news!!! THE D’ESPAIRSRAY CONCERT WAS AMAZING!!!! WOHFAKDJGSLJDGALJORIEHOIERNGL!! I was right in front with some of my buddies!! They have so much freaking energy and the entire time I was moving, jumping, singing, screaming, I was covered in sweat by the end of the show!! I got to touch ZERO’s bass and Dr. Sweet had a “bro hand grab” with Hizumi. I met some super amazing people in line, and I’ve become friends with them and I’m excited to have some new people in my life to share JRock with ❤ So while we’re in line (we’d been there since about 4 in the morning) tour buses started showing up and taking pictures and video of all of us…like we were animals in a zoo. It was really annoying and by that afternoon I was so done with it all. I swore that the next tour bus that came by I was going to chase it down like the wild animal that they thought I was……..lucky for you my friend had the camera rolling:

I’m also going to the Dir en grey concert in September, hope to see you there!!!

So August 18th is my birthday, ya’ll!! I am apparently going to 2 different parties for this and my family wants a third for themselves to celebrate with me XDD I’m super excited and just not sure what to think of it all XDDD College, friends, concerts, this is the best birthday month so far, EVER!! I can’t wait to share my excitement with everyone ^^ TIL NEXT TIME!



I want to start off by saying I’m sorry it’s been so long since I’ve posted. I’ve had a lot going on and I’ve just been so busy!! Please forgive me

So my friends are awesome…no, I don’t care about YOUR friends, my friends are better. They’re super amazing, super positive and I’m the luckiest person in the world to have them. Nothing in particular sparked this post about my friends, just that they are amazing XD One of my buddies from Middle School came down from New York recently, so I decided that it was time to celebrate with her!!! So I got a bunch of us together and we all went to karaoke. Not your lame bar with a karaoke machine, a REAL karaoke place!! It was epic! Music, laughter, souju, good times were had by all!!! I’m sad she’s back in New York….I MISS YOU!!!!

GOD I LOVE THIS GAME MORE THAN I SHOULD!!!!! Dynasty Warriors, otherwise known as the most repetitive game in the history of existence. I can’t help it, the fact that half of these people were real and half of this shit actually happened I get so sucked into it. I think that it’s also because I want to become a Chinese History professor that I’m so into it. I actually want to specialize in the turn of the 2nd Century/end of the Han Dynasty era…..yes the era that Dynasty Warriors takes place in DON’T JUDGE ME!!!! Anyway, I went out and got the expansion pack for DW6 and besides getting to create your own characters, I’m not too impressed with it. You do get to load all your old stuff from DW6 and the horses and combat are better, but again, not too impressed. Oh well…when DW7 comes out I’ll buy that too…….because I’m a consumer whore…

So I went to the Distant Worlds concert a week or so ago (for those that can’t read the image above it’s “music from Final Fantasy”) I had a lot of fun with my friends but I do have to say that the previous years were better. They had an amazing music selection this time and I got to meet one of the Tenors!! I -was- impressed, however, with the fact that they sang the opera from Final Fantasy 6 “Maria and Draco” and sang it well. The guy they had singing Ralse’s part was amazing and he only looked like he was 18!! Perfect! It made me realize that I really do love all the music from Final Fantasy and that I’d really like to own all the soundtracks. I already have FF7……and my birthday is coming up……hintidy-hint-hint….

LOOK OUT WORLD!! I’M LEARNING KOREAN!!! MWUAHAHAHAHAHA!!! No, really though I am learning Korean ❤ I’m excited to be learning a new language even tho I’m kind of learning by myself. My friend Vinny said when she gets some time she’d offer her services to help me study and put everything into context. Right now I can read a lot of it but I have no idea what any of it means XDD Just like “I totally know that reads: ha-ba-say-yo” BUT WHAT DOES IT MEAN!??!?!?! I’m learning ^^ It’s great to learn! CAUSE KNOWLEDGE IS POWER!!!

Speaking of concerts!!! OMFG D’ESPAIRSRAY CONCERT IN LIKE….2 DAYS!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAY!! I’m excited as always to be a part of the music scene. I’m going to be crazy as usual and Dr. Sweet and I are going to leave around 2a.m. to get to a show that doesn’t start until like….6p.m. or something. Yes…crazy. I’m also excited cause I get to see some folks I haven’t been able to hang out with for months!!! Makes me happy ^^ YAY!

In other random news, I’ve been dating again ^__^ I’m still really……not sure about a lot of things since my last break-up but I’m always willing to try. Always. I’ve got a guy in my sights and I ain’t stoppin’ til he says no!! XDDDD Ah…I’m such a go-get-’em kinda gal…no wonder I scare so many guys away…I’m aggressive XDD ‘Til next time, folks!!!



backstabber!!!It’s recently come to my attention that certain members of my “friends” have been talking about me in a most unpleasant manner. To be very honest I don’t care all that much, they’ve been spreading rumors about me and calling me things that have the words “emo” and “fat” in the same phrase. I’m not too surprised about one of them, they’ve done nothing but rag on me the entire time I’ve known them and honestly I’m done with it all. I don’t need that kind of drama and I’m just going to be the bigger person and walk away. The others I am a little surprised only because they’ve been listening to this person and agreeing with them. Now, granted in the past I lied a lot, I came out and told everyone the truth and since then I have not lied (or tried my hardest not to lie) So I understand from time to time when I say something that you’d want to check up on it just to make sure cause that lingering feeling is there that maybe I’m lying again. However, after so many times that I’ve checked out and come clean you’d think that people would trust me a little more. So I’m done, I’m too tired to deal with any of this any more and if you’re one of those friends please either stop talking about me or leave me alone since we’re done. Thank you. This has been a public service announcement.

Yoshiki Foundation!So I was up in LA for about 3 days for a charity event benefiting The Grammy Foundation, Meals on Wheels, and the Make a Wish Foundation held by none other than Yoshiki of X Japan. It was his kick off party for his charity foundation that he started that day to benefit kids without music. I’m really happy I got to be a part of it and I feel blessed to have been able to share it with the people I shared it with. Dr. Sweet and his sister (+ the boyfriend of said sister, Casey D. Walmack!!) and Ms. Whirlwind of Disaster herself came with me to the benefit, we were in line from about 5am Thursday morning and didn’t get home until about 2:33am on Friday morning. That put Dr. Sweet and I at a total of 72 hours of being awake, people. We were DEAD tired. Besides the obvious line cutters, we had a really good time and I even saw some of the girls that were at the Miyavi concert that was a pleasant surprise!! We got to see X Japan in concert, took place in a new music video for a new song (that makes 4 X Japan music videos that I’m in) and I cried cause I’m a total nerd and being at that place made me happy ^^ After we were coming down the escalator and Dr. Sweet mentioned that it was too quiet and we needed to do our victory scream. So we did…little did we know that it would start a chain reaction and the whole area went nuts, cheering and screaming “We are!!! X!!! We are!!! X!!!!” and it was just all around epic. XD Good times ❤

We Are X!!!!On a side note, I gots me a new tattoo. Right above my (metaphorical) heart and yes, above the booby. I like to call it the “titty tissue”, copyright me!!! Bam! I’ve been wanting the tattoo forever and it was about time that I got it, this just seemed like the perfect opportunity to get it. Now if I could just get my Final Fantasy tattoo redone then I wouldn’t feel bad about neglecting it. Dr. Sweet promised to pressure me into getting it redone XD I seem to have a problem with getting things done I need done XDDDD Oh well! I’ll get it eventually. Anyways, I have to say that this is so far the most painful tattoo I’ve gotten and that it was completely worth it. X Japan has been my gateway into the world of Japanese music and culture and by association, my friends. I can’t thank them enough for that, a tattoo is the smallest way to say thanks. Anyways!!

h.NaotoSo at the charity event h.Naoto (a famous fashion designer) had a launch of his new line that he created with Yoshiki and I have to say that it was amazing!! I wish I had pictures to show you guys!! There were a few items here or there that I didn’t care for but for the most part the clothing was really bold, in your face, and just over all stylish. I have to say that my favorite shoes in the whole show were these high heels that were made to look like an X (I assume for “X Japan”) they were so exotic and yet simplistic that they shouted out at me “buy me! wear me!!” I needed them! XDDD I’m going to be on the look out for a lot of this particular fashion line, all of it was so amazing.

So…yes…that’s about it in a nutshell XD Fun times!!! Good days!!



Sorry to everyone who reads my posts. I apologize for leaving for so long. Dealing with my dad’s death has hit me in different ways and I just don’t know how to handle it sometimes. I took a little hiatus but I’ll try to keep posting regularly to keep you all updated on my rants to the world.

GOOD NEWS EVERYONE!!

Well, let’s start off with the good stuff! I’ve become much better with my drumming than I was a few months ago. I’m still enjoying it even tho I totally screwed up my back playing for about 7 – 8 hours with my crew. I’ve been taking pain meds and rubbing this aspirin cream into my muscles for a week or so now. It’s helping a bit but it’s not a solution to the problem. I either need to get me a back brace to keep my back straight, or they need to invent a set of Tama drums that are my size.

In other news:

HOLY SHIT IS THAT SOME MIYAVI!? YOU BET YOUR ASS THAT’S SOME MIYAVI!! LOOK AT THAT BITCH WIELD A GUITAR!! GONNA SELL OUT SOME MOTHER FUCKING CONCERTS WITH THAT GUITAR!!!

Yes folks, on June 10, 2010 I was present at the House of Blues concert for Miyavi himself. I have to say, I’ve never been disappointed at a concert of his. No matter what he always seems to blow me away. When ever he plays it’s like he channels a god into his fingertips and his hands move at speeds that my eyes can’t follow. Miyavi always seems to hold the audience in his hand and when he tells you to jump, you don’t even ask how high you just do it. My nephew recently got into Miyavi through the miracles of YouTube and when I heard this I bought him the tickets to the concert. He had no idea where he was going until he got there with my sister. My nephew is a little musician himself, and I thought it was really great how he could respect another musician despite the fact that they don’t speak the same language. For the first 20 minutes of the show all my nephew could do was stare at Miyavi in awe. Watching his fingers dance across the strings of his guitar, I could see my nephew’s eyes light up, and that made it all worth it.

This isn't them, obviously I met some nice girls in the line for Miyavi and it was really fun watching how excited they could get. I remember being young and having dreams of meeting some one I admired and respected. I had fun making sure they didn’t get beat up in the mild mosh pit and head banging along with them. Lovely ladies, it was a pleasure to meet you, I can’t wait to see you in line again!

After the concert I was walking with my nephew back to the car when I ran into some of my fans. As much as I love my little fangirls it really can be annoying to be in so much pain and being so tired and having to stop every two seconds to appease their fandom. Seriously one actually got on her knees and begged, the other asked me to sign her arm. All this my nephew witnessed. YOU ALL THINK I’M TALKING OUT OF MY ASS!! HA!! NOW I HAVE A WITNESS!! -Ahem- So to my fangirls, I love you, but please. When I start walking away and start looking really tired and start dragging my nephew behind me, I would like to go home. Thank you!

So about a week ago I got up for work and started to drive down the freeway for the 45 minute drive to my workplace when I started to feel kind of light headed. After a two second “I don’t feel so good” I started to vomit like my good pumpkin friend here. While I was driving. This has never happened to me before so I kind of started to flip out. Some how, some way I was able to pull to the side of the road and finish being sick. After a few shaky minutes I called my boss to let him know I wasn’t coming in, I was LITERALLY covered head to toe in vomit at the side of the freeway. I tried calling two other co-workers but I eventually had to call Mr. Bloo on his day off.  I was able to wake up my mom and she took care of me. Got me cleaned up and helped me clean my car. Moms’ are awesome. Very awesome. EVERYONE GO HUG YOUR MOM. NAOW. My boss seems to think that I got sick like that because of the stress of losing my dad, and honestly I agree with him. All kinds of crazy shit happen because of loss, who knows what else I might go through. Le Sigh.

SIDE NOTE!!!! Did you know that “Cougar” in French is “Puma” ? Do they even have cougars in France?

So…I’m sure you all have a friend, a friend that is amazing sometimes but kind of a bitch the other times. It’s usually the bitch parts that seem to get in the way of friendships with these people. I have one such friend, who is leaning very heavily in the bitch department recently. I don’t know what their deal is, I don’t know what I did or maybe they just up and decided they don’t like me. All I know is that they need to either live with it, talk to me about it, or walk the fuck out of my life. I’m tired of people thinking they can just say whatever to me and think it doesn’t hurt or that I’ll just put up with it. I’m just tired of it.

So that’s about it for now. Just living it day by day. Love you all.

And remember: A Dry Sponge, is a Happy Sponge



I’ve been gone for awhile, I’m sorry to all those that like to read my blogs but I’ve been trying to pick myself up. April 30, 2010 my father past away. I’m dealing with it how any one else who lost some one they loved would deal with it. Been crying, been depressed, I’m kind of not sure what I’m doing or anything. My father was my best friend, made me what I am today so I feel sort of lost. I’ll be ok eventually, I just don’t know when.

In other news, I’ve decided that I’m going to concentrate on my music. I feel like with all the rush-dating I do to try and find some one I actually want to be with, that I’m just wasting energy that could be used on more productive things. Why am I trying so hard? I should just let it happen so I’ve decided that I need to get hardcore with my drumming. I’ve started taking more lessons (once a week) and I find that I’m really, really happy when I’m lost in the beat. I’m not thinking about anything except the beat and the rhythm. I don’t know what it is about the drums that make me happy, exactly, they just do. My drum teacher is freaking awesome, the man is partially deaf so he watches and feels the beats I make instead of hearing them. He corrects me perfectly and I’m still amazed at how freaking good he is. My band has accepted me back and that makes me happier than anything. I’m still not fantastic at drums (about where I started, honestly) but I know that I can be great and I can’t wait to start making real music with my band mates.

Computers: I have a love/hate relationship with them. Recently I moved into a new room and finally uncovered my pc that I built about 5 years ago. I decided to fire it up to see how it was running. My analysis: Not very well at all. The computer was riddled with viruses but I couldn’t physically find any, I just knew they were there. So after looking through it and then having a friend look through it, I decided to just format the HD. I took everything I wanted off of it anyway, where’s the harm, right? No! Computer refuses to let me format the drive. No matter what I did (even using my external hd as the master) would not let me format it. Finally had to borrow a disc from a buddy of mine (Dr. Sweet, as you know him) and was finally able to force a format of the drive. Not before the viruses burned out my wireless pci…luckily I had a spare, but still, pissed me off XD

FOR THE HORDE!!! So since I got my pc up and running I’ve decided that I’m going to play WoW again…I’ve missed it and honestly I really need to lose myself in something when I’m not playing music. WoW will definitely help me with that. Not to mention that I have a good buddy on my old server and I love her to death. I will run with her once again and WE SHALL OWN ALL!!! I miss my character, too. Yes, she’s a Hunter, but she’s a BADASS Hunter…with outdated gear cause I haven’t played in like…….6 – 10 months? Yeah…any way. This is just my “hey, this is what happened and what I’m up to post.” Hopefully I’ll write more soon.

D.R.B.

March 26, 1935 – April 30th, 2010

I love you, daddy



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